Eloi, Eloi, lema sabachthani?

Eloi, Eloi, lema sabachthani?

My God, My God, Why have you forsaken me?

Lord, You were my tower of refuge. my safest shelter. YOU PROMISED YOU WOULD NEVER LEAVE ME OR FORSAKE ME.  Then, Why? Where, WHERE were you?

Did you SEE what that man did,  Did you FEEL MY PAIN, Did you HEAR MY SILENT CRIES? My SILENT SCREAMS?

Yet... you did not even spare your one and only Son, Jesus. When he died on the cross, carrying the weight of the world's sin, Overwhelmed to the point that the Son of God himself felt and cried out "My God, My God, Why have you forsaken me?" For a moment, you looked away.. you had to. You Had to.


You had to for the glory, the joy, the resurrection that was to come. You had to for the salvation of all mankind. for the salvation of me. Jesus, HOW did you endure all that shame, blame, rejection, mockery, pain.. Oh what Love what LOVE could endure such pain. God, I see that you had to allow it. for the GOOD that was to come. for the RESTORATION and HEALING that was to come.

O Savior, REDEEM my brokenness. Lord, I do not have the complete picture. I do not know the whys, but I CHOOSE to TRUST in You. For a brief moment you abandoned me.. or allowed me to experience the overwhelming pain that blocked away your presence. Is this Intimacy with Jesus? To suffer a glimpse of what You suffered? 
I am waiting, I am trusting for Your GLORY TO COME.

but what I do know... God, Your Love is Strong.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=301S7NgAkLs

One thing God has spoken,
   two things I have heard:
Power belongs to you, God,
and with you, Lord, is unfailing love.

-Psalm 62:11