Kabhi Khushi Kabhi Gham

Happy Birthday, dearest Sandip.

I pray you are well. I pray that God is revealing Himself to you more and more, and that He is protecting you and taking care of you. You are turning 21 now aren't you? You are a gift to this world. You have been God's gift to me. You may never know, but God does. I hope one day you will too.

Sandip, I saw Christ in you. 

It amazed me.. you have not yet accepted Christ as your Savior; Yet I saw God in you. You reflected Him to me. I thank God for creating you. You are His beautiful creation, made in the Image of our Creator. God always spoke this verse to me when I thought of you, "The joy of the Lord is your strength" - Nehemiah 8:10 I pray you will know how special you are. I pray you will truly know how much God loves you. I pray you will receive the Truth and Light that Jesus is shining upon you amidst the darkness of your world. 

You don't even know, but God brought so much Healing to me through you. Your joyful spirit, the way you cared for, respected, and loved each of those girls as sisters.. and how you cared for me, brought light to my experience in Kolkata... so drastically different than most of the men I encountered there, Especially in the red light area. I praise God So much for the presence of you in their lives and in mine.

My brother, my brother, my dear dolphin brother. May Satan never be able to steal away your Joy. God Protect him Protect him. Send your angels around him and all the girls there. I heard he got really sick, but God I pray you will continue healing him. May he be able to earn enough money so that he can provide for the rest of his family and once in awhile be able to enjoy treating himself to some of his favorite Good Day Biscuits as he works so hard everyday. The pollution of darkness that surrounds him, the spirit of pollution and sickness and filth, the idols, the evil that pervades where he lives,  God i pray that you would purify his surroundings, keep him pure, clean him, Heal him.  Lord, I know he is not perfect. He needs you so much... deep down I know that only you can heal. ONLY YOU can save. Help me truly believe that. Help me believe that God YOU LOVE HIM so much more than me, more than I ever could. 

LORD, open his heart. Open His heart to seek you. to receive from you. I thank you for Peter, Leonora, and Rafique, who found him and provided him this job. For the bible studies. Thankyou for using me to show Christ to him as well. Thankyou for allowing me to give him the gift of a bible as our parting gift. God I know He sensed love through me. I pray that he would Know that love comes from You. As he misses me, I pray that he would remember YOU, not me. GOD speak to him through Scripture. Open his eyes to see your light. May he receive your HOPE. May he Believe in you. Break down the idols and cultural religious barriers, the lies that there are many gods and all are true. Break down the parts of him that thinks he can rely on himself. LORD, may he be intrigued by your words. May your scriptures come alive to Him so that he may believe, follow you, even renounce his family's religion after encountering Your truth, your Light, Your LOVE. Comfort Him. 

LORD YOU ALONE ARE SAVIOR. SAVE HIM. 

I cry outtt, my heart is weeping, grieving, and breaking because He does not know you. The darkness that overwhelms him, he's so lost, He needs your healing. He needs You! You have given me so much love for him as a valued person, brother, friend. a man that reflected Christ to me.. I know that it could only have come from you. HELP me have Faith that you truly love him more than I do. Why do I feel like I love them more than you? God i submit these feelings to you. 

JESUS, I WOULD DIE FOR HIM TO KNOW YOU. I would die for so many of these ppl that are so lost and broken.. for them to know youu. Why did you save me? and not them? GOD give me faith that you are working in their lives.  LORD, I know it is not my role to save. My feelings of wanting to die for them to be saved.. I know now that I am not just crazy.. This HEART, this LOVE is from YOU.

LORD, thank you for giving me your heart and your love to love them. Now, I give it back. I surrender. Comfort me, that I cannot be in their lives anymore, I cannot communicate to them. I can't even wish him a happy birthday.... so painful.  I can't even fully explain to them how much You love him.

SANDIP, JESUS LOVES YOU JESUS LOVES YOU. I'm yelling across the oceans for you to hear. I long for you to know so badlyy, I long for you to seee CHRISTas I have.
Lord, give me Faith that JESUS will carry His message to you.

Happy Birthday, my dearest Brother.

Kabhi Khushi Kabhi Gham- through the happiness and sorrow, God is with you.